Saturday, March 8, 2014

Awareness of thought





Today I was able to just let my thoughts be, let them happen, rather than fight them or talk them out, get angry or frustrated.  I went for a long walk with my dogs today because it was just so beautiful and the sky was blue with no clouds.  Usually I let my thoughts take over and I miss out on everything that is going around me.  I just let them be today, acknowledged them and then they flew out as soon as they came in.  My thoughts didn't control me today, I just noticed that I had them.  Normally, I just download and have the same old conversations with myself and the same negative feelings as I get overwhelmed with thoughts. I think that this awareness of my thoughts might help me in the fields of talking nice and talking tough by letting myself have these thoughts but not necessarily act upon them.  I can pick and choose what is important to me to talk nicely about or if it is important enough to talk tough. 
Today, I intentionally observed myself with thoughts about not wanting to go to work today.  I was so overwhelmed with my to do list today that my thoughts were racing everywhere.  I forced myself to become conscious of specifically my thoughts about going to work. I realized that I needed to do some self-exploration as to why I was feeling like this and come to a decision whether or not I would go and move on.  As I was able to focus on this thought and nothing else, I was able to think more clearly.  I made my decision and felt super calm about it. 

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